January Twenty-Third<3;
Today started off horrible. I woke up really sick, and hour early it was ridiculous, then off to school blah blah long and tedius, but I watched finding nemo in marine studies today, yeah that was cool. Then I went off to track and we had to run 10 90's and if our whole group didn't get there in 14 seconds, we'd have to start over. It was annoying, but me and my bestest friend ever Krystal! got to leave early because we were going to see our boyfriends wrestle :] yea I said were because we found out they didnt have matches, so we went home and now I'm sleeping over her house yayyy :D Krystal and her sister Val say yooo :] yeah my day wasn't exciting at all but heres something cool. I'm an African bask in the after glow. I'll update later! (:
Love always,
autumn.ashley
January Twenty=Seventh<3
Today I had the first part of my english regents, I hope I don't fail it :[ I saw Brandi today tho! yayy (: And Fred hugged me, that was beyond weird. Now I'm at my boyfriend house, yayyy :] but he's sick, boo :[ But, we're gonna watch the secret life of an american teenager, and umm he love's love story by taylor swift :] haha. Oh, and Obama's amazinggg :]
Love always,
autumn.ashley
May Twenty-First<3
First off, I just wanted to say I'm sorry for not being on this in four months, geez am i horrible! but anyways me and ray made it to a year, yesterday<3 and tommorrow we're going to a sushi restuarant and a movie<3 i love him so much! i'm sick tho :{ thats not good! today wasn't interesting at all though, i've been on an emotional rollercoaster. i just wanna invent a time machine and go back to when I was younger. Hopefully everything will get better! but, I'm staying strong<3 and I promise i'll keep up to date with this (: peace love &+ obama!
Love always,
autumn.ashley
May Twenty-Second<3
So, today I suffered extreme pain for three hours. It was the WORST! i hate periods, and my moms putting me on bc so that will never happen again, as long as theres no pain, i'm alll good. Then, me and ray went to a sushi place and it sucked :[ we shouldve went to friendlys, the things i'd do if I had a time machine. I got a new journal today! not because I needed a new one, but because it was cool looking :P okay, well. I'm gonna go cause I still don't feel good :[
Love always,
autumn.ashley
May Twenty-Six<3
Sorry I haven't been on, my computer blows :/ so, I went to tim's saturday and we eat sushi and crab in a bag! :D and went to the park at hiawatha, and then ray invited me to his UFC fight party, and I was happy he invited me(: then on sunday me ray and josie went to the new playground at hiwatha and let me just say one thing, fucking awsome, that's the only expression you can use to descrive it, but we decided that it was invented so little kids wont be obese, because they only have ONE set of stairs, but the playground consits of rockclimbing, a crazy twisty slide and cool thing that you spin around and, just amazingness :D then on monday me ray and tim got sushi, and went to the park! :D and me and rays family played cranium, and me and ray are crazy competitive lolz :D but i got iced coffee today from mcdonalds and it made me very happy :D well, i'll talk to ya chicas and fellas laterrr(:
Love always,
autumn.ashley

I was born on October eigth Ninteen Nintey Two, making me Sixteen years young. I've been through so much in my sixteen years. Rejction, Abandonment, Insecurity, Losing best friends, Feeling empty, Not feeling like I fit in, and the best part falling in love. I don't live with either of my parents, as I see it, my mom's in her fantasy world, I love her to death and all but sometimes I feel like she's too busy living her perfect life and she doesn't relize how we feel. My father, I love him but sometimes I feel like he doesn't even love me. I live with my grandparents, I dont even fit in there. I have always felt out of place. Everything I do seems to not be my thing, when will I shine? I've always felt inseucre, I used to be an ugly duckling, and now I guess I turned into a swan, not a beautiful swan, but being a swan is way better than being an ugly duckling ya know? I had a best friend, too many. They all left, my mistakes, their mistakes, no mistakes at all. It's for the better..right? I do have one best friend who has never left my side, nor betrayed me. she's the only true one, Cassandra, she's amazing, and everything you could ever want in a best friend, god do I miss her. I can't wait to visit her it will be great, she's always there for me. I know we'll be best friends til the end. I feel like even now in the eleventh grade when I am supposed to feel in my place right? then why do I still feel like I don't belong anywhere. It's ridiculous and I just want to be wanted and excepted. And there's the one thing I live for, forever, his name, Raymond, He is my rock, my sun on a rainy day, the missing peice my heart has been searching for, as naive as it sounds, I know he will forever be mine, and that no matter what, we will all be in love, Love, ahh it's just a beautiful thing, no wonder why people live and need and search for it, it's like a drug, you can't get enough. See love is something, you never wanna loose, once you get it, you never wanna give it up, and that person, will be the one you can feel safe with, That's what Raymond is to me. He's the only one who make's me feel beautiful, I fit in with him, he's my best friend, we have our own language and we spend every waking moment together and honestly, we wouldn't like it any other way, I hope everyone reading this gets a spoonful of love, and never put's the spoon down. So welcome to my online journal, where I can express my most inner feelings, and my readers can too, my journal is your journal.
Love always,
autumn.ashley